Her notepad poems 
Derailed train of thought

Derailed train of thought

My mind is a scary place to be,
It’s a place nobody wants to see.
I have spent most of my life in there,
Hiding from a world that doesn’t care.
My mind is a lonely place to be,
Nobody here can understand me.
The conflict of light and dark inside.
A battle from which I cannot hide,
My mind is a deadly place to be,
The voices inside want to hurt me.
They are trapped and can never escape,
So they try to poison me with hate.
My mind is a random place to be,
Voices always try to confuse me.
The quest to focus has always failed,
My train of thought has been derailed.
My mind is a noisy place to be,
A whirlwind of voices surrounds me.
Only music can block them all out,
It protects me when they scream and shout.
My mind is a dark prison for me,
No way for me to ever be free.
I don’t want to go out of my mind,
As a way back I might never find.
My mind is the only place for me,
The place I still always want to be.
A strange place that I can call my home.
Where I can sit proud upon my throne.
Dean Thorpe
Mental heath word cloud created by Dean Thorpe

A mental health word cloud I created to go with one of my poems about my mental health problems

About this poem

Another poem about my mental health, my mind really is a scary place for me to be sometimes. I see and hear things every day, they are not always negative, but when you are trying to sleep and they are talking or shouting continuosly it makes it very hard to sleep, even if they are being nice! Everybody has internal monologue voices that they can use to work through problems and discuss ideas with, but these are not like that. My voices are completely out of my control, it's like doing a flat share with a dozen people, sometimes a LOT more, most of which don't get on and they often want to talk random drunk style crap at 3am when all I want to do is sleep. The closest thing I can describe it is like being in a room with a dozen television sets all turned up loud, all with different channels on and there is no remote control!!  I do have multiple diagnosed mental health conditions, but I am not a danger to anybody, only myself!


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  1. Her notepad poems: Introduction
  2. Her notepad poems: Being free to be me
  3. Her notepad poems: Big metal box
  4. Her notepad poems: Blue lights in the mirror
  5. Her notepad poems: Christmas thoughts
  6. Her notepad poems: Cold and grey in the UK
  7. Her notepad poems: Colours of my life
  8. Her notepad poems: Computers are a pain
  9. Her notepad poems: Concept of happiness
  10. Her notepad poems: Crowds all around me
  11. Her notepad poems: Derailed train of thought
  12. Her notepad poems: Eh Ju Kay Shon
  13. Her notepad poems: Evil people around us
  14. Her notepad poems: Exploring the woods
  15. Her notepad poems: Feel the pain
  16. Her notepad poems: Feeling alone
  17. Her notepad poems: First true love
  18. Her notepad poems: Fluffy little tails
  19. Her notepad poems: Fluidity / genderfluid
  20. Her notepad poems: Free school parking
  21. Her notepad poems: Frozen moment in time
  22. Her notepad poems: Gay Pride
  23. Her notepad poems: Going to Disneyland Paris
  24. Her notepad poems: Hand beside me
  25. Her notepad poems: I hate you
  26. Her notepad poems: Illusion of life
  27. Her notepad poems: Just another dumb animal
  28. Her notepad poems: Just be
  29. Her notepad poems: Life of a photographer
  30. Her notepad poems: Life of a snowflake
  31. Her notepad poems: Light from another world
  32. Her notepad poems: Lurking in the darkness
  33. Her notepad poems: Maybe I am going mad
  34. Her notepad poems: Mindfulness
  35. Her notepad poems: Normality
  36. Her notepad poems: Not going mad this Christmas
  37. Her notepad poems: Opening my mind
  38. Her notepad poems: Out there
  39. Her notepad poems: Passion or prayer
  40. Her notepad poems: Perfect man
  41. Her notepad poems: Psyonic dreams
  42. Her notepad poems: Raindrops on the window
  43. Her notepad poems: Red is the colour of blood
  44. Her notepad poems: Roller coaster rider
  45. Her notepad poems: Second by second
  46. Her notepad poems: Side effect of Doctors
  47. Her notepad poems: Silence closes in
  48. Her notepad poems: Sometimes
  49. Her notepad poems: Some people
  50. Her notepad poems: Storm
  51. Her notepad poems: Strange creatures
  52. Her notepad poems: Stranger beside me
  53. Her notepad poems: Sugar excess
  54. Her notepad poems: Tick and the tock
  55. Her notepad poems: Time flies by
  56. Her notepad poems: Trapped in the Summer
  57. Her notepad poems: Trust in terror media
  58. Her notepad poems: Watching death poem
  59. Her notepad poems: Westwood House
  60. Her notepad poems: When I grow up
  61. Her notepad poems: When munchies attack
  62. Her notepad poems: Why I go to Pride
  63. Her notepad poems: Why me
  64. Her notepad poems: You are my reason